“It was very toxic, we were horrible with each other,” admitted the actress two weeks after losing the trial for defamation after she denounced in a newspaper column that she had been a victim of domestic violence.

Amber Heard spoke again after the trial against Johnny Depp and generated a strong controversy by confessing that she still has feelings for the actor. ” I love him and loved him with all my heart.” And she assured: “I have no bad feelings or ill will towards him.”

“I know that can be difficult to understand or it can be very easy to understand if you have ever loved someone,” he added. In an interview with NBC News, the “Aquaman” actress assumed that her relationship with Depp was ” very toxic” and they were “horrible with each other.”

In that sense, Heard expressed: ” I did and said horrible and unfortunate things throughout my relationship, I behaved horribly.” Along these lines, she explained: “I did everything in my power to make a relationship work that was deeply broken and I couldn’t. “

The 36-year-old actress affirmed that she feels “a lot of regrets” for the things that both have experienced during their relationship and clarified: “I spoke openly about what I did, the horrible language, that they pressured me, to the point that I did not distinguish the good of evil ”.

“ I am not a good victim, I understand it, I am not a nice victim, I am not a perfect victim”, he lamented and finally concluded: “I made many mistakes, but I always told the truth”, that is why “when I testified I asked the jury to see me as a human being.”

Two weeks ago, a US civil jury found her guilty of having “acted with malice” by orchestrating an alleged “defamation” against her ex-husband, Johnny Depp, in a journalistic note published in 2018 in the Washington Post in which he claimed to have been a victim of domestic violence.

Depp and Heard met in 2012, while he was still dating Vanessa Paradis, in 2015 they got married, but 15 months later the actress filed for divorce, accused him of domestic violence, and requested a restraining order. “I endured excessive emotional, verbal, and physical abuse from Johnny, including angry, hostile, humiliating, and threatening assaults whenever I questioned his authority or disagreed with him,” she detailed in the lawsuit. Shortly after, they reached a millionaire agreement and the perimeter was registered.

The actress and model must pay 15 million dollars to the protagonist of Pirates of the Caribbean, although in the first instance Heard’s defense, Elaine Bredehoft, said that her client does not have the money to pay her ex and the 59-year-old actor’s lawyers They hinted that they would not charge it.

Last Monday, Heard broke the silence after the verdict, saying: “I don’t blame them (the jury). , I understand them. He is a very beloved character and people think they know him; he is a fantastic actor.”

On that occasion, he also highlighted the “hate” to which he was subjected on social networks, which he considered strongly unfair. In this regard, he assured: “Even someone sure that I am deserving of all this hatred and virulence, even if they think I am lying, they could not even look me in the eye and tell me that they believe that in social networks there was a fair representation. ”.

“I don’t care what they think of me, nor the judgments they want to make about what happened in the privacy of my home, in my marriage behind closed doors. I don’t think the average person should know those things, so I don’t take it personally, “he had confirmed in an interview that took a much more combative tone.